Thursday, December 24, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
Today I am thankful for a wonderful husband who is taking care of a sick wife and a sick son.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Eye update: Vision in my right eye is back. I'm struggling a bit with very blurred vision in both eyes. I go to the neuro tomorrow.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Today I am thankful for my friends who are helping me through this difficult time.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Today I am thankful to have my sister visiting from ME!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Today I am thankful for my precious son.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Today I am thankful that my husband spent the day with me and Asa.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Sorry about all the complaining but I needed to vent and that is why I created this blog.
Today I am thankful it is Saturday and I get to see my Asa. Love him!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
I am noticing I don't have much time to sit and write on my blog. I'm thinking this is going to get pushed to the side once I start teaching. I'm also thinking I just won't have time to do anything for me. I hope I'm ready for crazy time. Blah!
Asa is at daycare today and I can't get into school. I must go and clean my house one last time before school starts. I'm really not sure how all of this is going to work. It will work. I have an amazing husband who will be a huge help. We need to remember that I am not the only one going back to work but the whole family is. It will be a transition that we all need to adjust to. I am giving myself until October to have some sort of routine down. One thing I'm concerned about is working out. I was going to get up early but I prefer sleep. I am feeling so so tired these days (work hasn't even started). I thought I might workout after Asa went to bed at 7:30. By 7:00 I'm ready to crash too. Ahhh!
Also, I am working on stopping all my meds so I can try to get pregnant again. I am really nervous about stopping my Rebif but we'll see. I'm happy in a way to stop it b/f school starts b/c I was really worried. There are somedays where the side effects are so bad that I wouldn't be able to get to school to teach. I'll keep you posted on how this all goes.
I do read all your blogs but just don't have time for my own. Hope all is well with everyone!
Today I am grateful for a Heather day.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
I will do my best to write again soon. I know once teaching starts I probably won't be blogging much, doing facebook or much of anything fun. Although I did tell my husband to please make sure he still sees me reading for enjoyment. I do need some down time at night b/f going to bed.
Today I am grateful that my sons daycare is closed so we can spend a lot of time together this week.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Today I am thankful for my husband. He helped me step out of my box on Sunday. I plan on writing about this sometime. I had a great time!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
After an exhausting 5 1/2 hours of being out of my house I decided it was a good idea to go out with a few friends for a drink. Let me just tell you that by the time 7:00 came (I was going out at 8:00) I was ready for bed. I still went out and actually had a really nice time.
Today was a great day too. It started with my 1 year old carrying out a card for me which was just too precious. My husband then made me the most delicious French toast I have ever had. It was so much better than a restaurant. We enjoyed our day together as a family. Then my husband made me a chicken parm. dinner topped with delicious wine. It was a really great weekend!!! It is so amazing being a mommy.
Today I am thankful for my husband.
Friday, May 8, 2009
Update: I feel as though my right side has gotten less numb and tingly. I'm not sure if this is because my right foot is so uncomfortable that I'm forgetting about the other annoying things happening. My foot still feels as though I am walking on golf balls. I feel like there is something stuck between my big toe and the next toe. My neurologist said to take 400-600mg. of IB Profin to help with the pain. I tried and it didn't help. He said to call on Monday if the pain was the same or worse.
There is a really good deal being offered at the local fitness and I've been debating about joining for the last week. I used to workout there a lot. When I got pregnant I was so exhausted I just quit and really have never thought I'd have the time to join again. My husband is very encouraging and telling me that even if I just went 3 times a month it would be worth the deal. I was thinking I could go Sat. and Sun. mornings and then one night a week. I really used to enjoy doing step and kickboxing classes. I'm just wondering about my foot and if I could do this. The attitude I had last night was F*CK MY FOOT! I really don't want this to control me and what I do. You also need to sign up for an 18 month membership. It's crazy for me to think about my life in 18 months. I'd like to think in 18 I'll be pregnant again. Then there definitely won't be time to go to the gym with two kids. I'm so torn as to join or not. AHHHHHHHHH!!! The whole getting pregnant thing is a whole other issue because of what is going on with me now.
Today I am grateful for wine.
Friday, May 1, 2009
Today I am thankful for my wonderful husband.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
MS is so hard to deal with. I feel like you can't really fight it. I am definitely a fighter and very competitive person. I really don't like to be beat. I am doing my best to not let MS beat me! It's hard for me to know and understand that I really can't fight MS. The only thing I can do is try to stay positive and continue to walk in the MS walk each year and raise as much money as I can for the society.
Today I am thankful that in 5 days my sister will be taking a long journey to visit us. I miss her so much!
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
A - Age: I'm apparently 32. I'll need to share that story sometime because it's funny.
B - Bed size: Queen size bed and so comfy.
C - Chore you hate: Cleaning the shower! Yuck!
D - Dog's name: I don't have a dog. I have a cat named Lucky.
E - Essential start your day: a shower
F - Favorite color: used to be blue but now might be green
G - Gold or Silver: Platinum please
H - Height: 4'11 and 3/4" which I round to 5 feet (I kept your exact same answer Weebs.)
I - Instruments you play(ed): I played the violin since 2nd grade and also the piano.
J - Job title: Teacher
K - Kid(s): I have a son who just turned 1.
L - Living arrangements: husband, son and cat
M - Mom's name: I call her Mom.
N - Nicknames: HB, Babes
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: None- thank goodness
P - Pet Peeve: I have a lot!
Q - Quote from a movie: I'm not much of a movie girl.
R - Right or left handed: Right handed
S - Siblings: 1 sister (who is also my best friend)
T - Time you wake up: It all depends on when the kid wakes up. If he's still asleep at 6:30 then the alarm wakes us up.
U- Underwear: yes
V - Vegetable you dislike: asparagus
W - Ways you run late: I honestly have never been late. If I ever were late it would be because I got lost. I have absolutely no sense of direction. I think this makes my husband a bit crazy especially when we are going to a get together. He hates when we are the first people there. He made me go to a BBQ an hour late once and somehow we managed to still be the first people there.
X-rays you've had: MRI's and in high school I broke my elbow, wrist and thumb while cheerleading
Y - Yummy food you make: vegetable lasagna and many many desserts
Z - Zoo favorite: monkeys
Today I am thankful for having so many wonderful friends who care about me.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
I believe that people come into our lives for a reason. We met in Sept. 1999 during my first year of teaching. We shared what used to be a janitor closet.
I wouldn't wish MS on any of my friends or enemies. I can remember the day I told you I was diagnosed with MS so perfectly. You knew where I was going with my story because you too were going through the same thing. I couldn't help but cry. I wanted to come and visit you that instant and just hug you and cry. I was so sad this was happening to you. It is so awful to have MS happen to such a dear friend of mine. I was and am truly blessed to have you as a friend in my life. You are the only one who truly understands what I am going through with my MS. We share the same treatment. I can't count the number of times you have been there to listen to me and to share suggestions on how to make the Rebif less painful.
I just want you to know how much I appreciate our friendship. I wish we lived a bit closer so we could see each other more. I am always here for you when you need me. I am so blessed to have you in my life.
Today I am thankful for the sunshine and warmer weather it will bring (although I don't like much over 75).
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Today I am thankful for my husband. I appreciate that he came with me to my doctor appointment.
I am also thankful for my sister. I hope she knows I too would do anything for her.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Today I am thankful that the sun is out and spring is in the air.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Today I am thankful for an amazing 1st year with my son. Happy 1st Birthday Asa!
Monday, April 13, 2009
Today I am thankful for spending time with a good friend and her two beautiful girls.
Friday, April 3, 2009
Today I am thankful for my amazing friends.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Today I am grateful that my baby (soon to be 1) will be going to the daycare of my choice.
I am also grateful that spring is in the air.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
I'm actually not going to write a real entry today because I'm just not up to it. I'm hoping just getting on here again will get my inspired. So, instead I'm going to do a little survey I saw on Weebs blog. Here it goes.
* THREE NAMES I GO BY:
*THREE JOBS I HAVE HAD IN MY LIFE:
- daycare teacher
- telemarker for a local newspaper
*THREE PLACES I HAVE LIVED:
- I've always lived in NY. I've lived in three different places but always NY. A bit boring.
*THREE TV SHOWS THAT I WATCH:
- Desparate Housewives
- The Office
*THREE PLACES I HAVE BEEN (I've been to many more places but just have always live in good ol' NY. I was hard to pick three):
- New Brunswick
*THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO:
*THREE OF MY FAVORITE FOODS:
- pizza and wings
- my dad's pancakes
- chicken gyro
*THREE THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO:
- spring so I can get outside and walk
- a wine tour with my girlfriends
- my sister visiting in May
*THREE MORE THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO:
- more dates with my husband
- my babies 1st birthday
*THREE FAVORITE BANDS/SINGERS:
- Regina Spektor
- Antigone Rising/Cassidy
- Beth Orton
*THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
- Mountain Dew
*THREE THINGS I'M AFRAID OF:
- the dark
- being home alone at night
Well, it's 9:00 so I must be heading to bed. Good night!
Today I am grateful for my husband and all his help.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Today I am grateful for being able to chew gum again.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
I also had a hard day because my husband was home from work. He should have had a snow day but didn't. When he tried to leave our house he couldn't make it down the hill (we live on a really big hill) so turned around and made his own snow day. At first I was so happy because I was thinking he would be a big help to me and I could get a bunch done and have a bit of a break. Well, I didn't realize he was going to work from home. GRRR! He asked why I was so grumpy so I explained: When you are home I feel as though you can help me. At around noon he tried to go to work again but it was freezing rain so he stayed home. It was just an over all hard day. I also have my period so maybe this could be part of my grumpiness or just adding to it.
Today I am grateful for my sister. She is my best friend and I miss her so much (especially on days like this.)!
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Today I am grateful for getting to use my elliptical.
Here is what I wrote:
January 16 at
Hey! Don't call me tonight when you get this message b/c I'll be going to bed at about . I hope you had a good time and got home safely. I am so sorry I couldn't come out w/ you tonight. I hope you understand. No one understands unless they are in my situation but it really sucks to have your entire life revolve around one thing. I hope someday I adjust to it but its been 7 months of my life already and I am still not adjusted. Every Monday, Wed., and Friday it is what I think about almost all day. On Tues., Thurs., Sat., and Sun., I feel like I need to do something fun and crazy because I don't need to do my shot. It really sucks! I'm sure I could have come out and not drank but it's just not fun when everyone else is doing it. Sorry to blab but I am having a hard time again. It just made me sad when you told me you would be mad at me if I didn't come out. I am sorry. Call me sometime tomorrow. Can you do something next Sat. night? A small girl's night?Let me know b/c if you can maybe I won't go out tomorrow night.
Here is her response (remember she is drunk so it's a bit tricky to read):
January 16 at
yes, we will get together tomorrow night. I forgot it was a a friday and what they meant to you. I didn't mean it when I said I would be mad at you-it would take much more than you not coming to drink with me. I forget what it is like to have one as little as asa at home and I have not idea what it is like to deal with the shots. You are an incredible mother and i would never be mad for you choosing to stay home. My only concern is that i have been there and know how important being with adults and friends is. You put your self last all the time and I hope you and Tim realize all that you are doing to make sure Asa has the best availale to him. Let's make it a plan for next sat. at
I still haven't heard from her yet today. I need to not let her drunkinness be an excuse for her comments on the phone last night.
Today I am thankful for the choice I made last night.
Friday, January 16, 2009
Today I am grateful for gift certificates.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
1. I love my husband more than anything. I am a lucky women.
2. I am a mommy of an 8 1/2 month old baby boy- Asa James.
3. I have one sister who lives in Portland, ME (We are 8 hours apart from each other). I miss her everyday and wished we lived closer to each other. I cherish the time we have together. I also am thankful for the morning phone call I get from her on her drive to work everyday.
4. I was diagnosed in Oct. 2006 with MS.
5. I am afraid of the dark but enjoy looking at the stars.
6. I enjoy drinking wine.
7. I don't go anywhere without my water bottle.
8. I enjoy exercising.
9. I read Post Secrets every Sunday morning.
10. I am afraid of spiders.
11. I enjoy listening to live music.
12. I love to sing. I would love to perform someday.
13. I have a hard time expressing myself verbally.
14. I miss my mother in law.
15. My husband, sister and friends know me better than I know myself.
16. I LOVE when my sister visits but HATE that she has to leave. I miss her so much!
17. I have never lived alone. There are times when I wish I could have had this experience. I think I would be a much braver person.
18. I was born on Christmas day.
19. I am going to learn to sew.
20. When I eat tuna fish sandwiches or macaroni and cheese I need to have chocolate milk to drink.
21. I rarely can stay awake for an entire movie.
22. I am a teacher but am always thinking of what else I could do for a job.
23. I hate saying good-bye to people.
24. I have always wanted to learn to play the cello. I think it's a sexy instrument. I know how to play the violin.
25. I am impressed that I came up with 25 things. It was harder than I thought.
Today I am grateful for the long weekend I got to spend with my sister.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Sunday, January 4, 2009
I always feel like I have so much to write about but no time to actually get to it. When I get to do it I forget what I was going to write about.
I am really enjoying reading the blogs I like to read each day. There are a few bloggers who I'd really like to get to know better. I wish they lived closer too.
My sister is going to be coming for a visit this Saturday and I can't even begin to say how excited I am about it. The last time she was here was in August and Asa was 4 months old. He is now 8 months old and grown so much. She lives about 8 hours away in Portland, ME so it's not easy getting to see her. She will be back in April to celebrate Asa's 1st birthday and then my husband, Asa and I hope to visit her in the summer. It will be a big trip for Asa but possible. My sister and I have gotten so much closer since my diagnosis of MS and having Asa. She is my best friend and I share everything with her. She is the only one who is allowed to read my blog. She is actually the one who got me started and introduced me to blogging. She is an amazing and incredible writer (I think she got all the creativeness.). She recently just started a new blog in which she will be writing letters to me. I am looking forward to reading these letters and think this will even bring us closer. I know that when she visits this weekend I hope to get caught up on our lives when we were high school. We both probably have such different experiences and there were things that happened that I believe we need to talk about. There are so many times when I wished she lived closer. I would love to just get to spend more time with her and hang out.
Someday I'd like to write about my parents but I wouldn't even know where to start. It really requires therapy not writing.
I am sad for today to end. My husband has been off of work since Christmas and it has been wonderful. I have enjoyed all of his help with Asa. I will miss him so much.
Today I am grateful for Asa sleeping 12 hours last night. I am getting better at sleeping and not waking up to check on him. I still don't sleep that good because I am listening to the monitor to hear him. Another good thing about Asa sleeping better is I can now stay up until 9:00. I am also grateful for getting the time to use the elliptical again. I'm not sure how I'll find the time now that my husband starts work again tomorrow. We'll need to figure out something so we both can work out.
Good night and sweet dreams!
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Today I am grateful for working out on my new elliptical.
So, Happy New Year!
Today I am grateful that my husband spent the time to put out new elliptical together. Tomorrow I will start working on that resolution. Wish me luck!