Sunday, May 10, 2009

Mother's Day

I had a really great weekend! It started on Saturday with my husband telling me he was going to give me money to go shopping. I spent basically all day shopping. I went alone. I sometimes like to go alone because then you can go at your own pace and leave when ready. It was a bit sad though because this trip was suppose to be with my sister. She will be visiting soon and I will continue this little shopping spree with the money I have left. I usually like to go with a friend because I need opinions. My foot is still driving my crazy but I am doing my best to ignore it and go on with life. If you didn't know I had such pain you would have no idea. I am tough and I won't let this knock me on my ass.

After an exhausting 5 1/2 hours of being out of my house I decided it was a good idea to go out with a few friends for a drink. Let me just tell you that by the time 7:00 came (I was going out at 8:00) I was ready for bed. I still went out and actually had a really nice time.

Today was a great day too. It started with my 1 year old carrying out a card for me which was just too precious. My husband then made me the most delicious French toast I have ever had. It was so much better than a restaurant. We enjoyed our day together as a family. Then my husband made me a chicken parm. dinner topped with delicious wine. It was a really great weekend!!! It is so amazing being a mommy.

Today I am thankful for my husband.

Friday, May 8, 2009


Here's the deal: There are times when I have extreme grumpiness that I have no control over. I know I am doing it and know I am acting ridiculous but just can't stop it. I over react at the littlest things. I hate the way I am acting at the time but it just happens. I never used to be like this. There are times when I really want to think I can blame it on the Rebif. I also could blame it on MS and still trying to deal with that.

Update: I feel as though my right side has gotten less numb and tingly. I'm not sure if this is because my right foot is so uncomfortable that I'm forgetting about the other annoying things happening. My foot still feels as though I am walking on golf balls. I feel like there is something stuck between my big toe and the next toe. My neurologist said to take 400-600mg. of IB Profin to help with the pain. I tried and it didn't help. He said to call on Monday if the pain was the same or worse.

There is a really good deal being offered at the local fitness and I've been debating about joining for the last week. I used to workout there a lot. When I got pregnant I was so exhausted I just quit and really have never thought I'd have the time to join again. My husband is very encouraging and telling me that even if I just went 3 times a month it would be worth the deal. I was thinking I could go Sat. and Sun. mornings and then one night a week. I really used to enjoy doing step and kickboxing classes. I'm just wondering about my foot and if I could do this. The attitude I had last night was F*CK MY FOOT! I really don't want this to control me and what I do. You also need to sign up for an 18 month membership. It's crazy for me to think about my life in 18 months. I'd like to think in 18 I'll be pregnant again. Then there definitely won't be time to go to the gym with two kids. I'm so torn as to join or not. AHHHHHHHHH!!! The whole getting pregnant thing is a whole other issue because of what is going on with me now.

Today I am grateful for wine.

Friday, May 1, 2009

Support Group

I live in a small town. There are MS support groups both north and south of me about an hour away. I'm really not willing to travel there. I wish there were something in my town. I've thought about starting a group but am not up to it right now. I also want to go to a support group that is supportive and positive and not just a bunch of people of complaining. I go to counseling once a week for a whole other reason but during these times talk of MS has come up. I guess sometimes I look at that as support. I just would like to meet with other people who have MS in my town. Any ideas or thoughts?

Today I am thankful for my wonderful husband.