Thursday, January 1, 2009

Mothers

My mother in law passed away on December 4th. I think of her so much and miss her. There is so much more I wish I could have said to her. My husband doesn't talk about her much since she passed. I asked him last night if it was okay that I talk about her and let him know when I am thinking about her. He said it was fine. He shared with me last night that the reason he stays up so late at night is because he is sad and thinking about his mom and can't sleep. I was so glad he shared that with me. The other day I had just gotten off the phone with my mother and she said something to annoy me. I was feeding Asa and started to cry. My husband wondered what was wrong. I told him that I feel so bad that I complain about my mother and feel awful that she makes me so crazy when he doesn't have his mom anymore. This has really been bothering me. My mom has been doing and saying things to make me a bit nuts. I try to be more patient with her but it's hard. I also think about the fact that she might not be here tomorrow. I will add being more patient to my resolutions for the new year.

Today I am grateful for working out on my new elliptical.

1 comment:

Tori said...

Don't be too hard on yourself my dear. You have been through a lot and always do your best to deal with Mom. Take that from your sister who is hundreds of miles away and cops out by using distance and the way to deal. Not so brave.