Saturday, December 20, 2008

Sad day

Today was a sad day. It was weird. I thought about my mother-in-law so many times today. I was trying to hold back the tears or when I did cry I didn't let my husband see. I finally told him that I was sad today because I was thinking about his mom a lot. I kept hearing her over and over in my head during different times today. My husband told me I was crying his tears. It's so sad to me and it just doesn't seem real yet. I HATE when people die. I feel like it's so hard to go on like normal because things aren't normal, someone important in your life is missing. I hope my husband knows he can be sad around me and that it's okay to cry. He did break down at the funeral which I thought was good but I hope he knows he doesn't have to play tough guy. I can't even imagine loosing a parent. My parents tend to drive me bonkers but I would miss them terribly. I HATE death.


I am grateful that my husband got our Christmas tree today and I at least got the lights hung up.

2 comments:

pUNKrOCKfairy said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Hang in there.

LISA EMRICH said...

Heather,

I'm so sorry for your loss. It is completely natural to mourn not just your mother-in-law but the future you had envisioned.

So much has happened to you and your family this year. I wish lots of joy for you in the coming year.

Lisa